Erm...went down NH again...hmm how many times have i been going down, Erm...dun really remember! Aniway went down...upon the invitation from weiye (btw the invitation wasn't very formal sia...but still glad i was invited). Went to witness the ceremony, and was surprised by some of appointees, especially "yandao kia" was appointed a Head. Erm...dun get me wrong...i was surprised not bcos he din't deserved the appointment, but rather i was surprise that the management saw potential in him, which i also think so. Happy for him, and also Ms Who-was-in-my-dept-in-camp made it as a "combatant", also not forgetting the graduating people "All the Best".

I think today i quite enjoyed myself, cos recently i was stuck at home doing nothing and most importantly no one to talk cock with. So today when i was down at NH, went around toking crap with lots of people. Starting from those who wore "green", and the graduating people...and especially one among them who kept asking abt the "history", which i can't remember well. Hey i'm getting on the age, and i can't remember everything that well sia!

I think i will need to attend more of these kind of functions in order to make myself entertained. Now i strongly believe that why i like PR that much liao, cos i dun think i am those who can lived alone and be entertained by doing stuff on my own. I'll need lots of company to tok crap, cock, rubbish with mi. I guess a joker is always a joker, and it lies in the family genes...wahahahahaha!

Hmm...nothings seems to be concluded (again), so back to square one (again). And also some things din't went as well as expected, so back to the drawing block again for more plannings, which also means more days have to free up for more meetings liao.

I guess being a "rubbish sweeper" isn't a easy job, but i've already told myself that it won't be easy, but still I can't help but feeling disappointed by the things that are happening. So wat to do? Employers of cleaning company shld really start to increase the cleaners and ("cleaners") salary liao.

Hmm...after some careful thinking, I din't receive any appreciation from the "people above" for the many years of service. Rather all appreciations are given to those who had a shorter period than mi and less capable. Can't help but feeling abit sad for myself, even thot I still wants to carry on the volunteering. Maybe a volunteer shouldn't "demand" so much, since it's volunteering? But i dun see why can't a little appreciation be given to let someone who had put in his effort to be abit happier. Nevertheless i'm not THAT unhappy abt it, cos I'm still able to seek out my hapiness during my service, in other places that "those above" dun seem to care that much about.

Is God really unfair? Cos if he really is, den i'm in the right organisation, cos it's affilated to him. But if he is fair, den i wonder if the organisation i'm in is really orthodox, or it might be another "Hang Goat Head, Sell Dog Meat" (it's a chinese idioms...sry to non-chinese speaking) btw no offense to those believer of god, cos i may nt be refering to ur god.

Yesterday morning, went down to NH to see their parade...and of cos i'm not alone, went there with umi, james, nora, and suksi who is already there when we arrive. Aniway the parade was done quite well, with marches and presentations. Went there and took some videos of the parade, and also making fun of the pple who were promoted. Haix...so reminded of many years ago when i was a cadet, i also do particpate in these parades.

After which went for a meeting to discuss some "unsettle matters" at Clementi Mac. Guess so far everythings is going ok, but still require some "green light", which today umi will fight for it. We've decided on quite afew things, and i believe that we'll be able to make a difference this time, cos we're very determined!

And also went down to support my family in the marathon again, this time with afew more cousins. But this morning receive their sms that they'll be giving up cos someone is nt feeling well and the possiblities of becoming champion might be small. Nevertheless it still seems fun, even for us who aren't in the marathon. Abit sad for them cos they've endured until so long, and also abit for the computer that they might be wining (for mi!) And also yesterday when i was there again, this time i saw tze yi over there working as "judges" (?), but never mind wat it is...i seem to be able to meet up with pple i know at the event.

Yesterday when my cousins n i were at Orchard support our family, we also went for shopping and also for our dinner. We went to fish n Co at Havelock (or Wheelock?), aniway the one with borders. We ate quite a number of things...like mussels (my first try), fish n chips, calamari and a BIG fish drink...which is really big that it shld be shared by two.

Woah...done so many things for a day...no wonder today i woke up and thot it was Monday already, then after "stone-ing" for afew moments, then i remembered yesterday was Sat nt Sun. Guess i may just stay at home for Sunday today, since i may have "overspend" on Sat.

OMG...it's 1am now...but i'm still waiting to transfer the video images i took today...so might as well use the waiting time to do some blogging.

Ok...today went down to Ngee Ann City with jane...to support my family members, my sis n my bro-in-law and two cousins. Btw they are on a marathon not to sleep for the next two days, and today is their first day. So went to look at them and support them, also took down videos of them too, and also very unexpectedly saw the Sgt who was with us during my first ICT. Actually he "jump" beside me, and i pause a moment for my cam and luk beside mi...and woah...i asked "why are u here?", and he told mi he is one of the orgainzer (i guess, something like tat bah). Aniway happy to meet him also, reminded me of the happy moments the grp of reservists i was with during my ICT.

After that, went down to HQ for the BBQ...the food was nice...but the pple are rather not so active into the BBQ thingy...until we started playing "Huh n Wat" game...and not to forget abt the saboing thingy...in the also kena sabo sia. Aniway later all became more attentive cos i started telling them abt ghost stories, then later weiye took over...which i went over to the nxt "table" to entertain the others.

Oh...the transfer of videos is done...but before i end, i guess the BBQ is rather quite enjoyable, and also i hoped all did enjoy the gathering. Ok...back to my videos editings...

Haix...( a veri long sign...) On my1hr plus journey back, i suddenly fell into depression...was shocked for a moment, after i found myself depressing. So when i was near my home, i went to the nearest 7-11 and bought quite afew packs of chocolates and my favourite drink. Thinking that after eating those chocolates could bring me back to my normal state, luckily it did help abit.

The story to my depression...hmm...it shld sound like this if you put them in these examples.

There is this "forsaken ground" and a troop of warriors wanted to salvage the ground and try to get it back the glory days. One warrior decided to put in his best efforts to salvage the ground, but suddenly many restrictions lay hands on the warrior before he started, making him unable to do his best for the promise he promise his comrades that he will do his best for them. It is like you know you're going on a battlefield, but suddenly the armory tells you that you don't have any rifle for you to shoot down any enemies.

But nevertheless i've gave my word to my comrades that i'll help them, i'll do so...even if i've to use an jack-knife to get rid of my enemies. Guess i'll have to "poke" my enemies until they drop onto the floor and laugh until they dun have the strength to fight back.

Camp may have been over but i'm still feeling excited as though i'm still in the camp. After the camp, many seems to still suffer from the enthu-ness during the camp, hopefully they can continue their passion until the very last day.

Anyway...this coming friday, all the trainers and officers will be having a BBQ session at...none other than our beloved HQ, which is at beach road. So far most of the pple have agree to attend the outing, and i hope most will turned up cos this is a very good opportunity for all to gather once more. And most importantly it's free!

Til then, i will "type" no more...so stay tune for more updates on Sat, cos friday i will be back home late. And abt the camp fotos...it is still in the uploading process, and if you're anxious to see them, dun hurry mi...cos i'm not the one uploading the fotos.

I'm back people, back from a long 5Day / 4Nite camp. Suffered some fatigueness, soreness, and some itchcyness. Fatigue cos i din sleep alot, i strongly believed i only sleep 1-2hrs for per nite, anyway tahan until the last nite, which i was under heavy fire from the Zzz Monster, who led an army of Zzz troops. His firearms was so strong tat even with the help of the counter-antidote, coffee, it wasn't a match with it. Finally i succumbed under the Zzz Monster and slept all the way til morning 5am plus. Soreness is bcos i was teaching the trainers abt songs and cheers, guess i din use my stomach to project the voice, in the end sore throat at Day 3. Ictchyness is i got afew bites on my feet by the mos, and bcos the weather too humid making mi itchy after sweating. Caused a few redness on my body, wa biang!

Haiz...dunno how to blog now abt the camp, cos dun hav the fotos yet, but will definitely upload some fotos up, especially the camp "family foto". Guess i will blog afew stuffs i remembered...

I guess the interesting things on Day 0 (Advance party nite) is James, Yvonne and Mi toking on the study bench...initially was toking abt how xxxx the zone is now and the brigade, then when the sky is starting to light up. James started to sing the Justice Bao song...Wang Chao Ma Han zai shen pian..., then he went to disturd others who just woke up, like Jim, Chee Wee and Chi Wei. James and I wanted to switch off the toilet lights when they are showering, but in the end it wasn't successful cos the switch is controlled by the sensor inside. So without knowing james n I standby outside the toilet listering to the situation inside, slowly everyone went into the cubicle to shower, XCEPT Jim, wa lau he really damn super long-winded leh, tok for so long. Both mi n james are starting to feel aches on our body. Finally when jim went in, we turned the swich off and wanted to run, den we discovered the lights are not off, wa biang wat a waste of effort. But later on mi, james and yvonne we went to hide their shoes...wahaha!

On the Day 1, i guess the funny part was the roll call outside the AVA rm. The roll call started frm 1, 2, 3...all the way to 50 then samula, this went on for abt 4-5 times. The best part is there is 70+ cadets doing the roll call. Wa lau the roll call took up abt 15mins of the time, which made mi have to cut down the lesson time to 20mins frm the original 1hr. I guess nobody can teach tat fast like mi bah...wahaha! The other thing is when u tell the cadets "U drag some more, u drag, u drag", they really drag some more for you. Wa biang...totally defeated by these cadets sia!

Then on Day 2, while the cadets had their fun on the night hike, the officers and the senior trainers went on for a top secret mission "Operations Freedom", specially led by mi. The participants went to a top secret place which is coded as "Fairprice", we stockup alot...and i mean alot...cos the trolley is FULL and the recipt is LONG, i guess it was more than 30cm long.

Day 3 was the campfire nite, so unforunate was the short-lived rain before the campfire. After various desperate rituals like singing the rain rain go away, it still rained on us. So sad, then i suddenly thot of the "Qing Tian Wa Wa", immediately i ask somebody to pass mi some white papers and make the doll. After making, i ran into the rain towards the campfire and tied the doll on it. After it was decided to shift to the hall, everyone started to prepared the hall...bringing benches up, opening up the folded doors, switching on the fans. Then very suddenly the rain started to stop before the ZC is ursher up the hall. I dunno if my doll did the job or wat but everyone was in joy when the rain stops. Finally everything went as planned, the campfire started, btw it was a good and big fire, and most impt is everyone had fun during the nite.

I guess i will stop abt here first lah...until i got the fotos...den i can show u guys more...cya!

Tml i'm gonna be on a camping trip, therefore i'll be gone from the blog, but i guess u guys won't feel a difference cos i'm nt blogging very often recently.

It has been decided by mi, to get some supplies before i embark on my camping trip, but it has been raining since the start of the afternn or late morning (erm...? *thinking (nt) very hard*). Anyway tat's why i'm blogging now, cos i'm forced to delay my shopping trip.

Toking abt this camp, it should be an enjoyable one, cos it's with my good gang of frens sharing a common passion. Btw it is a long camp, stretching five days / four nitez...woah wat a damn long camp. If i remembered correctly i only went for once a five days camp, and this is only my second, of cos i couldn't include reservist's training lah! The gang of frens starting preparing since...erm...April!? Anyway met up almost all the weekends to discus the things until yesterday, which he had another meeting. And abt the meeting it was "calm after the storm", nothing much happened weeks before, then suddenly lots of things pops up like mushrooms given xtra fertilizers. Fortunately most of the things came to some conclusion, but still some left only with the options is see how's going lor.

Another thing is the weather these days, keeps on raining and sometimes even can rained for the whole day. This made mi worry whether can the plans be carried out sucessfully, and whether the contingency plans can be executed. Haiz...but i've no time to put these worries into my mind too much, cos my side also has quite a few "sudden attacks" to settle.

Ultimately, i believe all of us can have a great time, as the programs are very interestings and fun, especially during the campfire nitez. ALways loved campfire nitez, cos the mood is always tat high to play around.

Ok, cya guys again, after my camp!

This is a day, a fren...or maybe nt really a fren, since the friendship WAS broken so easily left, and even so once was called commrade. Aren't commrade called when you share thru hardship and hapiness together and survived thru out? Maybe this was a "new age" commrade where links can be broken off SO easily.

She make it sounded like all of us owes her, where in this world there's nothing like who owes who. As long as you r willing to give, you can't expect return, cos you r the willing party. When the other party reciprocate, then it is a bonus. The thing now is that we reciprocate her givings by having a friend relationship with her, so that together we can share joy and sadness. Sadness is a parcael of life and you will go thru it, going thru such things shld only build up the relationship stronger and not just break off. If not how can a stronger relation builds up?

She wanted to prove her frens wrong tat her "commrades" care for her, by suggesting we will celebrate her birthday. Did it ever occur to her, that day could be a busy day doing some other things that all of us SHARED our passion in, that we may not be able to celebrate for her like last time.

When she said "They just throw mi a present". Did she ever thought that time and effort was put in to get her this present, and when the present was given to her it certainly wasn't sounded like "Nah...ur present". I handed over saying "this is for your birthday present". Hello pple, would pple who does nt care abt u buy present for you???

Those who noes mi well, noes that i won't go polite to frens...politeness for mi is shown to strangers. My BEST fren can even remember a diff birthdate of mine nt once, but i dun mind cos as long as i still wans to befriend them will do. I dun expect anything on my birthday, but when there is, it's a bonus for mi. When there's isn't i would not mind it either, as long as i still wans to be your friend.

Even so, when i sms a sincere msg of my feelings to her, i expect a no reply from her. But after sending out the msg, i kept on chking on my hp hoping for some reply. Finally a reply came, but it wasn't wat i hoped it for, instead it was a sarcastic reply "Okay, everything is my fault. Bye". Tat point of time i was mad, cos the friendships is jus broken off with such reply.

Until now, i wanted to tell myself to forget abt this friendship liao, but seems like somewhere in my heart i still hoped for some hopful happy ending.

"Good-bye" may be good for you, but certainly i dun feel good abt it and it will never be a "Good" bye for mi.