"Tired", "Lack of energy", "Spiritless", and...

These are the keywords that describes myself for the past weeks or maybe just afew days ago. Feeling tired to do things, or more layman's term..."sian sian one". Dunno is because have to start my assignment liao, feeling stress...or is becos of the voluntary work is too much, or maybe both of them, or maybe it's just my lazy characteristics is showing up.

I guess my results caused me some stress liao, cos i hope to maintain the same results for my higher diploma. Maybe i'll be feeling better if i din't do that well for my subjects, but it might also just becos i dun wanna do my assignment bah!? Another thing is my school's university partner has decided to removed it's degree course, saying it was bcos they wanted to focus more on research. Resulted now, i couldn't do my degree in S'pore liao, if i still wanna study in that U. Although my school has been discussing with afew U to provide degree course for us, communications students, i still feel abit "sian sian one".

Today went down to HQ, main focus is to do the CPB, but in the end also helped abit in the flag day. When reached there, got the feeling of not wanting to do the CPB work, feeling "sian sian one". Dunno is the work too much and messy or bcos i'm having this "sian sian" mood swings.

I think some motivation will be able to boost up my morale, but what kind of motivation? Tangible or Non-tangible? Seriously no idea as what will be good for motivation...haiz...

Btw, recently read back my feng shui books, and got more interested. Went to Kino, during the National Day sale, to buy a new book on exterior feng shui. Only found out that, most of my feng shui books are for interior and i dun really know well about exterior feng shui. So interesting, got to "level up" abit more on my knowledge. Can't help but to mentioned something from my lessons... Foucalt, did i spelled his name correctly, said "Knowledge is Power". Understand? You dun? Then too bad for you, cos it's might be hard to explain, or is simply i dun wanna do that!

Also just came back from watching the last Fireworks performance by France, was great! But suddenly thought of soemthing "Fireworks is beautiful, although it was short-lived, it was at least best for once". This makes me thinking, have i made my best before? or rather have my wishes been granted before? Frankly speaking...i can't remember anything now that i've been in my best once before, in almost all the things i do. Seems abit sad sia, maybe or rather hoping some wishes comes true to let me feel that actually i'm not that sad afterall.

Got back my exams results yesterday liao and i only scored...2H, 3C and 1P...haiz!

So much for an excitement sia...didn't know that i would score that...with a big letter "L".

Haiz these are my results:

2 High Distinctions (which according to one my classmate, High Distinction is only awarded to the top student of the module) It also means i topped two modules, bahaha!

3 Credits and;

1 Pass (my marketing, cos i didn't study...my fren got HD sia!)

Wahaha...didn't know i am that..."Li Hai", cos my overall grade was Distinction!